love is our resistance

Muse Concert 2010

this practically summed up the Muse concert.
except, imagine more sweat, dancing and chanting.

i love the drums in this song.

so, apparently, I'm going for Big Night Out 2010!

hurrah!

tell me when you hear my heart stop. tell me when you hear the silence.

I'm fine. I'm okay for now.

I lost my momentum to do homework and I'm stressed over the need to study. But I havn't done anything productive in particular. I'm distracted in school, but it helps ease the passing of time. I'm moody nowadays and I'm starting to be mean to people around me. I feel helpless but indifferent in the morning then depressed, sad, and pissed off toward the end of the day.

I almost want to give up, but there's no point. I don't want my friends to give up but I'm not positvely motivated enough to help them up. I just do my assignments to help the time pass quicker, but I don't study because I don't know how. I'm pathetic and I don't think I'll be able to score As at all. Oh, for fuck's sake, I'm dying already...

What's wrong with me?

deep into the darkness where I hide.

new bands!

I don't care what you have to say about New Moon, but dude, the soundtrack is amazing. seriously, amazing. I was listening to it on my friend's iPod and I actually went high to the music, especially Band of Skulls' Friends and Hurricane Bells' Monsters. Hurricane Bells sound similar to the Strokes, and I love it! And Seawolf's The Violet Hour is such a fun song.. Grizzly Bear's Slow Life is so moving, it's slow and quiet, then there are sudden explosions of the different instruments in the middle of the song. It's so inspiring and utterly moving.....

PLUS, they have Black Rebel Motorcyle Club! And I mean come on, it's an acoustic song called Done Wrong. AWESOME! I'm extremely serious when I say I'm going to buy the New Moon Soundtrack. It really is quite brilliant. these are truly the types of songs I listen to. garage-indie-rock-type. hurrah!

listen and enjoy....

If I lose everything in the fire, I'm sending all my love to you.

I have goosebumps after watching this video.

The concert was amazing and I don't think I'll ever be able to forget that moment. I loved the crowd and the preformance. Billie Joe's interaction with the crowd made it all the more worthwhile. I didn't know I'd still be affected by the concert after 2 weeks, but seriously, I really think it's the single most amazing thing that happened to me in my 17 years of life. I am truly happy right now. Everytime I think of the concert, I get butterflies. wow. I'm in love.

I love Green Day.

stuck in a spinning room.

we had orientation for the J1s just now. and my OG rocks! woohoo. haha. anyways, it was mostly admin stuff instead of games and cheers. so it was pretty boring.. but the funs stuff will only happen during the overnight camp. but thats in march. which is going to take foreverrrr.

anyways, as much as it sucked cos there were A LOT of boring talks, boys make up for it. hahahaha. oh well, i'm fucking exhausted right now, and i'm still figuring out why i'm still an OGL.

I am curious about you, young sir.

i like music, concerts, dancing, parties, drinks, cigarettes, dressing up, going out, camping, beaches, travelling, clothes, people, friends, boys, girls, awkward moments, the night, silence, musicians, bands, rock and roll, indie rock, underground clubs, secrets, secret hideouts, mysterious people, quiet boys, noisy girls, riot grrls, skinny boys, bad boys, broken hearts, damaged souls, troubled minds, watching the crowd, shoegazing, dreaming, hoping, braces, messy hair, dark eyes, red lips, black eye circles, bruises, scars, tongue piercings, tattoos, art pieces, words, books, magazines, pictures, photographs, sunsets, the moon, the dark, rules, breaking the rules, weed, getting high, getting drunk, hugging, finding old friends, smiling, scaring babies, underground cultures, grunge, hippies, rockers, mods, vespas, motorcycles, leather and denim, rings, sunglasses, rayban, swimming, slow songs, fast songs, sad songs, milk and sugar in my coffee, tea, sugar cubes, sugar rush, laughing, hanging out, doing nothing, watching skaters, surfers, photographers, listening to people talk about what they love, remembering, memories, having a moment to myself, listening to music, long bus rides, watching others listening to music, standing in a crowd an observing, watching fans during a concert, band tshirts, music festivals, minivans, VW mini buses, big fields, picnics, packing picnic baskets, packing my luggage, holidays, roadtrips, tv shows, tragic love stories,

etc.

how did it end up like this?

Why oh why....

The Killers cancelled the Asian Tour due to unforseen circumstances, just TWO fucking days before they were supposed to play in Singapore on Sunday, 24th January 2010.

I was just about to get excited about it on Friday afternoon, then the news came. It was sad. Sunday came and it got more depressing.

But, I actually wasn't too upset. I don't know why. oh well.... There must be some kind of big reason for cancelling the tour, so I guess they had to. It's just wasted though..

do whatever you can.

Celebrate the silence.

fucking hell, look at josh beech.

never seen you act so shallow, or look so brown.

I'm tired. I'm physically, fucking strained. I'm extremely exhausted. This whole week, it's been one thing after another. Like today for example, it's a Friday for goodness sake, but immediately afterschool, I had to meet my group to have a discussion, then immediately after that, I was forced to rush through lunch. By the time I was done with lunch, cca started. It ended at 6, at which i had to rush to get to my tuition centre before 7. It's 1015 right now, and i just got home. So drained.. and tomorrow, it starts all over again. Wake up in the morning, rush to a doctor's appointment, come back in time to go for OGL training at school then come home and complete school assignments, then go to grandparents' house. just thinking about it makes me tired already... How did I get myself into this?

but then again, somehow, all this rush and the busy schedule makes me feel...good. Like, I'm constantly doing something productive. It's a great distraction from all the drama, so yeah, I'm happy. But I'm tired. Well, hopefully I can pull through.

Anyway, Pierrot the Clown fills the rest of my time now.

When i dream, i dream if your lips,
when i dream, i dream of your kiss,
when i dream, i dream of your fists,
your fists,
your fists..

Party with my pain

Johnossi

new band. very fast, very loud. somewhere along the line of mando diao but a bit heavier.